The worst part is wondering how you’ll find the strength tomorrow
to go on doing what you did today and have been doing for much
too long, where you’ll find the strength for all that stupid running around, those projects that come to nothing, those attempts to escape from crushing necessity, which always founder and serve only to convince you one more time that destiny is implacable, that every night will find you down and out, crushed by the dread of more and more sordid and insecure tomorrows.
Living Solo: The Ups and Downs
I moved out of my folks’ house when I was 21 years old, back then I didn’t know that it’ll be one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. Moving out truly meant being on my own, I’m my own responsibility. But independency comes with a price; the reality of cooking my own meals, a budget I had to work with, and other home related things astounded me. I’ve lived a quite spoiled life at my parents’ home; with housemaids to clean and cook for me; being on my own left me baffled about the littlest of things like cleaning the bathroom and organizing my stuff. Though little by little, I learned from past mistakes (that I’m too ashamed to blog here).
For me, living alone meant that I could stay up until 5am working on design projects without anyone bothering me or being awakened by the noise outside my room or eat in my bed. It meant I could stay curled up in bed for an entire day, eating whatever I want, fart under the sheets, and going home (I now call it my home) at whatever time I like. Being independent almost feels like being a rebel, but with your parents’ consent. I manage to support myself financially and turn down every offer to move back home by my parents. I felt so invigorated.
Though at times I get lonely, and hopelessness envelops me when my tiny place is so messy I couldn’t see the floor. And when I wake up from a severe hangover and I couldn’t find a decent breakfast or food, and when I can’t stand to eat another fastfood meal, when I terribly miss my dog (and when I think that he’s growing older without me around), sometimes I long for my mom’s nagging and bickering with my brothers over who misplaced the remote control; I think of coming back home. But I realized that I have subjected myself these feelings and issues when I decided to move out, that’s why I have to move forward.
One of the lessons I learned from living alone is not taking any crap from anyone else, and also I wouldn’t let a 24 years old who still lives with his or her parents to talk down on me. And the most important realization is that I will discover life at my own pace, and through the decisions, that I, and not anyone else, makes for me.
Joseph Kony, here’s hoping you get famous
Every human being has the inherent right to life.
1. The Underdog -Spoon
2. The First Day of My Life -Bright Eyes
3. Up Up Up -Givers
4. Chasin’ Echoes -The Lonely Biscuits
5. Animal -Javier Dunn
6. Sweet Disposition -The Temper Trap
7. Four Love Songs -Ellie Goulding
8. I Found A Whistle -MGMT
9. I’m Sticking With You -The Velvet Underground
10. You Wouldn’t Like Me -Tegan and Sara
11. On We March -Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross
12. Baby Missiles -The War On Drugs
13. Happy Kid -Nada Surf
14. Abel -The National
15. We Used To Wait -Arcade Fire
16. Bookends -Simon and Garfunkel
17. Dream -Priscilla Ahn
18. Heart In Your Heartbreak -The Pains of Being Pure At Heart
19. Don’t Carry It All -The Decemberists
20. Monuments and Melodies -Incubus
I apologize for the long hiatus again. It had been busy since we’re working on a new campaign pitch for some alcoholic drinks brands and some other work we have to finish before March. And also I’ve been sick for the last few days, this flu is killing me. So to make up for the long absence, I decided to participate in the game above. I must admit that I do have a horrid playlist in my itunes pigeonholed as “Guilty Pleasures aka 90’s songs”. Anyhoo, hope you guys are having a productive February. Photodump for this month will be posted soon. Cheers!
Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…you give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like “maybe we should just be friends” or “how very perceptive” turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt. A real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love.
--Rose Walker, from The Sandman by Neil Gaiman (via vivatregina)
Superheroes and maybe some villains
I was able to squeeze a personal work last week (I can’t this week, too much work but I ain’t complaining) and was able to finish it in one day. I got the inspiration since I will always be a fan of comics and graphic novels especially the ones from Chris Ware, Craig Thompson and Neil Gaiman. I guess this affiliation with these awesome things started back when I was a kid and was (still is) a fan of the Power Rangers. I was never pedantic on which superhero shows to watch as long as I get to have my save-the-world-and-rescue-the-girl-from-the-boiling-pot fix and then I’m good to go. There’s a certain charm superheroes have, heck even some villains look way cooler than some superheroes (Hi, Harley Quinn!). I assume that all of us are fans of these fictional characters at one point in our lives, ‘cos there is a certain comfort in believing in something even if it involves masks, capes and some ridiculous tactics to save the world from oblivion.
Hope you can guess the corresponding characters from the poster (Hint: it’s arranged alphabetically). Ruds by far has the most right guesses with 11 correct matches. Goodluck and have fun!
A New Life To Create
Pardon me from my 3 weeks hiatus. It’s been crazy since January kicked in. I was busy working on a new business venture with just the most amazing people (more on that in the coming weeks). Also, I had to deal with my back strain that’s been bugging me for almost 2 weeks now, I already feel like I’m Snorlax (pokemon) whenever I had to drag myself out of bed. How’s your January so far?
It’s Twenty Seconds ‘Til The Last Call
In a couple of hours we’ll ring in 2012 (I hope you guys are having fun and please enough with the firecrackers already) and before saying hello to the coming year I must say goodbye to the year that was. I’m no music critic and I wouldn’t claim that I have the best undiscovered tracks in my iTunes either. And I’m not making any sense, anyhoo, I put together tracks that made my 2011 awesome and at times, bearable. May you guys find self-fulfillment and self-contentment in the coming year. Cheers!
Atlas Hands – Benjamin Francis Leftwich, I Can’t Make You Love Me (Cover) – Bon Iver, 1901 (Cover) – Birdy, Go Outside – Cults, Landfill – Daughter, Chinatown – Destoyer, Thirteen Thirtyfive – Dillon, Your Song (Cover) – Ellie Goulding, How Come You Never Go There – Feist, Battery Kinzie – Fleet Foxes, Up Up Up – Givers, Somebody That I Used To Know – Gotye, How’d You Like That? – The Kooks, Devils Hearts Grow Gold – La Sera, Shuffle A Dream – Little Dragon, Movin’ Away – My Morning Jacket, Daughters Of The Soho Riots – The National, Anne With An E – The Pains Of Being Pure At Heart, Without You – Rainbow Arabia, Dance ‘Til The Morning Light – Slow Club, Northern Lights – St. Vincent, Changes – Stars, The Pact (I’ll Be Your Fever) – Villagers, Anna Sun – Walk The Moon, I Might – Wilco, My Body – Young The Giant, Hello – Martin Solveig ft. Dragonette, Future Starts Slow – The Kills, Pumped Up Kicks – Foster The People, Midnight City – M83.
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